Ok so this has been brewing for a while. I'm not looking for pity or  sympathy or anything, I just need to get it OUT.
Things are sucky. Yes down  right sucky at the moment. 
I am so over it. I'm over worrying, I'm just  OVER IT!!!
Financially, we are  in the shit.....again. It just never ends. And nothing has particularly  happened, it's just a series of weeks and months of never really having  the bills and income match up and bingo...we're done for. 
At the moment we are  spending every last cent every week just keeping afloat....just. We have  no outgoing calls, no money to put credit on the mobile and I'm wanting  to go pre-paid on the net too but seeing as it's my only communcation  tool at the moment I'm reluctant. There are so many things we are paying  off it's just not funny. And each week we are breaking ourselves to pay  those......and leaving yet more regular bills behind. Not to mention  the massive other and extra bills we have like the lawyer and car  repairs and regos.
You cannot budget when you are beginning behind.
And my biggest dramas  at the moment are no tea-bags and running out of  loo paper which the  kids seem to 
And to add to it, I'm almost out to tea-bags!!! Argh! Imagine that, I don't know how I'm going to survive!! Oh and loo paper, I swear the kids eat it!
Jake turns  two tomorrow and while I did get him a few things already.....I  couldn't get him the thing I wanted most, and I don't know when I will  be able to. That breaks my heart. We haven't spent much on the kids this  year for birthdays, $100 tops which I still think is quite reasonable. I  know he's only two and I know he'll love the Wiggles stuff I've got him  and I know he won't care...but I do.
I still haven't  bought or sent my lovely SIL and nephew a pressie from a month ago :(
I've  shaved and shaved and shaved the grocery bills till there's hardly  anything left, and since it's been going on so long the freezer is  empty, except about 20kg of sausages (don't ask!)
Anyway  whinge over. 
Time for the next post.