Sunday, March 13, 2011

It's been a year!!

So's been a year (almost) since I posted on here. Jake is about to turn three!!

Lots has happened, biggest of all is that we have a little Miss due in July :) We are very excited an impressed!!

Life has given me personally so many ups and downs in the last year. I went to work, got my first contract for .4 (two days a week). It was tough, a tough school but I plugged on for two terms, only to be told I wasn't needed for the third. This put a spanner in the works.

Just the day after discovering I was pregnant, my much loved Uncle passed away suddenly, shocking us all. The worst part for me was telling the kids, and having them understand it. He was like a Grandfather to them since we moved back down south, and it's the first person they have really lost. That killed me inside, and their heart wrenching sobs just broke my heart even more than it already was. It's easy for me to go a day or so not thinking about it, but then I catch myself going to say something about him or thinking I need to ask him something, and I realise I can't.

A wonderful inspirational online friend of mine passed away suddenly, in tragic circumstances....this hit home a few realities too. I still miss her, she was fabulously unperfect ;)

I also recently lost another friend, who just chose to count me out without even giving me the chance to tell my side of things. This still bugs me a lot. I am upset to think that someone I would consider a close friend thinks so little of me. I can't and won't say too much, only that I did do her wrong in the first place, I will admit that. She saw me painting her badly, when I really thought I was helping her out and saving her a little. I did come clean about it, but I never got the chance to say so. *sigh* anyway, no point dwelling on the past huh?

Things just trundle along here.....we have bad weekends, and others are great. For now things are going well, little Miss is proving to be a settler in our family, at least so far.

I will update some pictures later on, kids have grown so much of course :) Ben and Chloe are both in full-time school and I enjoy spending special time with Jake. Life is busy, and hard financially, but good.