Yes I'm busy, bloody hell do I know that. My last post I intended to be the beginning of blogging again....ermm......yes....that went well.
In 16 days, give or take, Little Miss will be here. Holy Hell. That excites me and scares me all at once. I am ready, well let me correct that, I have everything ready to go. Just need her. We still can't agree on a name, so that will be decided when we see her, hopefully then it will just come to us.
I am finding in these last weeks I am very anti-social. I don't want to go out. Taking the kids to school is a real chore, and I find myself trying to put my head down to avoid conversations....which are always the same "still on deck?? how long to go? you must be over it?" I just want to live in my little bubble a little longer......
I'm a little worried I'm not going to cope so well with 4....it scares me so much. Not too long ago I was feeling really unbalanced, feeling sure I had some sort of pre-natal depression, it did clear up by itself, but only after an incredibly dificult month or so. I'm worried if I'm not coping so well I'll end up with PND this time around, which isn't to say that PND is wrong....but you know what I mean, of course it's not something I want to deal with by choice. Hopefully Little Miss will arriv and just be perfect and fit into our lives easily. In my world she will feed beautifully, sleep beautifully and never do more than whimper.
16 days to go......
The babies just keep coming!
1 year ago